System overload

What happens when system overloads?
Overload is a condition that occurs
when the load is greater than the system was designed to handle.
Overload results in waveform distortion and/or overheating.
(www.sciencelobby.com/dictionary/o.html)
Still, when system overloads,
it will only be shutdown and modification will be made
and it will work again.

What then happens when human's system overload?

Our physic and brains can handle information,
stress or exertion only so much.
So what happens when too much is too much.
The existing knowledge increases every moment.
How is anyone able to truly understand everything?
We are offered information on a daily basis and even more.
The television offers many kinds of information,
entertainment, answers, questions.
But what happens when too much is too much?

What happens to human when they are plugged into information stream,
but when the time comes, no one unplugs the system and it overloads?

What kind of distortion or overheating happens to humans brains?
We still don't know much about brains,
but we know that when a damage is done to the brain,
we have no way of fixing it.
You get a gunshot wound to your head, bullet sunk into your brains.
You are dead when the brain matter starts spilling out.

Weather it's a live ammunition or information,
we should guard our mind and brains.
Love does not happen in the beating physical heart of our body,
but in the mind.
Memories are stored in the brain.
Everything you are is stored in the brain.
After all, we are what we see,
what we watch,
what we insert into our brains.
That will come out of us,
that is how we act and behave amongst others.

That is what we are.

Psalm 53

   The fool hath said in his heart, "There is no God." They are corrupt and have done abominable iniquity; there is none that doeth good.

   God looked down from heaven upon the children of men to see if there were any that understood, that had sought God.

   Every one of them has turned back; they have altogether become filthy; there is none that doeth good, no, not one.

   Have the workers of iniquity no knowledge--those who eat up my people as they eat bread? They have not called upon God.

   There they were in great fear, where no fear was; for God hath scattered the bones of him that encampeth against thee; thou hast put them to shame, because God hath despised them.

   O that the salvation of Israel might come out of Zion! When God bringeth back His captive people, Jacob shall rejoice and Israel shall be glad.

On that road again.... with that broken leg!!

Diagnose: Front cross ligament broken, some problems with the coil/loop/helix (what ever) under neath, and a fraction in the thigh bone.
What to do on a sick leave?
Go to Stockholm for a day!!

Starting on Wednesday. Nerves with the coming day. Packing up as small back that I can to manage one day and two night from home. Going to harbor and checking in and getting in the ship. Some older Finnish men gave way when they realized there was a disabled around. The journey begins. All exited to go. And still afraid how the knee's gonna work and respond to a whole day of walking with a bag on back.

The ship arrived to the harbor at 6.30 am. Heading to expensive buss to get out of the Harbor and to the nearest public transport station. A little waiting and buying tickets. Then heading to the subway and to our first location in our plan. Time - 7:05. Shops open - 10:00. Yeah. So what to do......
First we sat down and watched as Swedish took their dogs out to a little park and let them run, or how they drove to work/school/whatever with bikes, and in general seeing how they spend their morning time. Fortunately a coffee shop opened up at 7:30, so the time didn't go all to waist. Bought something to drink and eat and settle down to spend time.

The time went on and finally we got up and started heading to somewhere else. Our main point in going to Stockholm was to go shopping some spices. Around 11 am we finally found the shop we were looking and got to taste the place. We were there probably hour or more. After buying a load of spices and vinegars and oils etc, we headed to find a place to eat. Our first location didn't exist anymore so we had to find a new location. We traveled with the local subways and spent our after noon in Gamla Stan. We found this vegetarian restaurant where we ate and spend some more time relaxing. Then we found this little shop that sold tea's and we ended up buying four different kinds of tea's. Then some shopping and sightseeing. A little break sitting in a church garden and more sightseeing and some shopping.












The forecast had predicted rains for that day. So far we had managed to avoid them. Somewhere during the afternoon it started raining while we were in a shop. And it was really streaming down. Then we just had to cover ourselves with something and start heading back to harbor. I was half soaking wet when we finally got out of Gamla stan and to Slussen, to wait for buss to harbor. Luckily we were on time, since we didn't know that there was only one buss left to go there that evening. The buss kept us waiting a while, but it game and we got to wait in the harbor, get on the ship and float to Finland.







My legs were hurting and stretching the left leg was impossible. Some last minute shopping before heading to cabin, some ice bag on the knee and relaxation. Then some reminiscing on the happened events and little sleep before making land and getting back home. Then breakfast at home and unwrapping bought souvenirs and heading to bed. I didn't mean to sleep, but I fell asleep next to my cat.

Fairy

   Finding some strength to open a software and try drawing pictures as I did on Saturday. Using the same method as then. Today the nerves didn't break so easily as it did before. Then again, totally different day and totally different expectations of the day.

   While I was making this picture, listening to tv and sms:ing my friend, I started to wonder what all the flashes behind my window were. Took a while before I realized that it was storming outside, and badly. The sound of the rain hadn't reached my roof, and the thundering might have just as well being from the TV. My dog is afraid of the thunder and all such big noises, and was lying in my floor, probably wide awake trying to handle the fear, and smelling badly.

Art and Computer

   How darn difficult can it be to make just one picture with a computer? Can't be that difficult. Well, you better believe it. It's excruciatingly time consuming and nerve wrecking!!

   First of all, I didn't start from a blank paper. I had drawn this picture before, and now wanted to try to do it on computer with colors. Well, first of all, I scanned the original picture, so I had a layout on the computer what to follow. I started adding layers and trying all kinds of things with it. It started to become something. Sometime, after having a few hours break, I just simply lost my nerves. I mean, how b****** difficult can it be to allow the user to save the picture as .jpg???? I mean, REALLY. And now, in the end, I cannot say that I can recommend photoshopping to anyone. And I mean, NO ONE!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!


Monday the wonder


     The life of a very bored young woman, who doesn't think too highly of her life. What to do today? Yet another dull day in front of me. Well yeah, the MRI scheduled for today. What else to do?

     With the previous thoughts in mind, waking up late and rushing to shower, meanwhile contemplating all my options and pondering what my life is actually made of and where it's heading. After getting myself somehow in order, I decided to drive myself to downtown. Considering in what a state my leg was, and that our only automatic was with my sister, my only option was to drive with the stick and hope that my leg would make it through.

     Since my school is such a big pain in my butt, I've been trying to find some alternative options. Changing my major, starting to work full time, marrying my Mr.Darcy who ever he might be and starting my happily ever after. None of them really interests at this point. Studies are almost over, only little left, so why not try to finish them. Work has never really interested; one does it to get money, but nothing much excites in it. Mr. Darcy who?

     Today, while checking up our new library a thought came to mind. I've never been ambitious, and never been interested in swindling money from poor unsuspecting clients. I've always wanted my work to be something which might be beneficial to others (any hospital work or such is out of the question) but still to be something where I wouldn't have to socialize too much. My first work experience was in our local library. Experience wasn't much to recommend, but still I might handle it if needed be. So what if I'd become a Librarian?

Just a thought.

     Waiting for the MRI. Rushing to the MRI. Changing clothes, and going into the machine. Before it I thought it to be a easy, almost pleasant experience. Man, how wrong was I. It probably would have been. Just laying there, not moving a muscle and listening to the radio. But if you just take the wrong position while lying there, it can be torture. Since my leg can't actually straighten all the way, it's was a little painful to lie there. It looked like there was this little stand for the leg, but in fact there wasn't much to keep it up, so while lying in there the leg was in very uncomfortable position, and it slid lower and lower all the time making it more painful. Luckily, the time went by sooner than I could count, and then it was over. Finally. Still the results make themselves wait. Next week till I hear what the final verdict is.

Update of my life

5.8. Back to home from Kallioniemi.
6.8. Meeting with the local health center about my knee. Cleaning and rearranging my room.
7.8. Settling an appointment to get an MRI. Cleaning and rearranging my room.
8.8. Cleaning and rearranging my room.
9.8. Trying to relax and not to think anything.
10.8. Planning on doing one translation, or my school works or something more unintelligent. (Such as watching a movie)
11.8. MRI at 17.30
19.8. Phone conversation with the doctor concerning the MRI.
20.8. My mothers birthday and leaving to Sweden.
21.8. A day in Sweden (Oil & Vinegar, Meaning Green...)
22.8. Back to Finland.
23.8. Presumably celebrating my mum's birthday with the whole family with all the additional necessities (such as sister's husband, other sister's boyfriend, brother's fiancee, my cat and dog...)
Rest of my life ..... have no b***** idea.

Sonnet 116

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments; love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O, no, it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wand'ring bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.
W. Shakespeare

The power of intoxication

Morning came, and sun rose. The girl didn't want to wake up. The previous day at work had been hectic and she had had time for only one break during the work shift. She was tired but work still needed to be done. She stroke her cat who was sleeping next to her and debated weather to go and silence the alarm that was playing some of her favorite music, too loud. She just decided to pull the cover over and be still a while. The next shift would begin at 3pm. Plenty of time to kill.

Not that plenty, when the clock stroke 3pm. Still, the evening was promising. Not much to be done and very little clients coming and going. Some things needed rearranging and refilling, but that was soon done. The thing was to read a paper, take breaks (which she hadn't had time the previous day to take) and cash people. Very little people came around. Before 9pm the shop filled with customers, and the cue lengthen. At times there was to counters to be used, but when the clock stroke 9pm the alcohol cabinets were shut and locked and the biggest pressure passed. When the cue ended, she took her last break and ate something.

She came back from the break. The guy she was working with went back to finish up some things that were still undone, and she was left on the counter alone. Customers came and went and she smiled and cashed them one by one. She saw people come in and go out, some tall, some young, some old, some poor addicted to alcohol, some regular customers, some new. She was leaning back in her saddle chair, when she heard a loud crash inside the shop. She reached her neck to see, that that poor alcohol addicted drunk man had just broken the alcohol cabinet and was just loading his jacket with cans from within.

She shouted at him, but nothing happened. She hit the counter shut and closed and rushed around it to the man. His friend came around, and wasted as the other, and tried to explain something unrecognizable. She told the thief to put the cans back and tried to make him understand that he had just broken a cabinet, and that the Finnish law stated that no alcohol was to be sold after 9pm. The man ignored her and started going other way around to get out of the shop. She rushed the fastest way to the counter and ringed an alarm bell so the guy she was working with would come around to help her. She then positioned herself on the door, so that no one would go out without her seeing or encountering them. The man was wondering around the shop, his friend was trying to speak rationally and failed at that miserably, and her friend was no where to be seen or heard. She rushed to the bell and rung again and again and again. This was emergency and there was no way she could handle it alone. The drunken man came and tried to plant one can inside his friends jacket in front of her, with no digressions, but she snatched it from him and slammed it on the counter. Right about them her friend came around, and she started explaining the situation to him full of adrenaline and in a shock. He escorted the drunken man to the back, she let go of the door, handled the drunken man's friend's legitimate business, and he exited the shop.

In full of adrenaline, shock and anger she handled the next half and hour or hour the other customers, trying to be cheerful, occasionally making silly jokes, but still, hands shaking and cursing in her mind her luck and the man. The time seemed to move slowly, the cue seemed endless which lengthened all the time, her hand's were shaking while handling the money transactions, and no police was to be seen. The alcohol cabinet wasn't locked and others might try to steel, since now the door wasn't bolted. Endless visions and ideas rushed in her head, that if the drunken man had assaulted her friend and fled from the back door. Or if her friend didn't have the sense to call the police to the place, or......

Finally, the police entered the shop and she directed them straight to the back without questions asked. She was relieved. Still the shock remained. And the work in the shop was still undone. The police came from the back with the drunken man and her friend. Her friend showed the damage he had done. Then the other police started escorting him out of the shop. And still, even though amongst the police, the drunken man tried to steal some peanuts, which were closest to him. This made the other police angry, he took the peanuts of his hand, twisted his arm in the back and rushed him out of the shop without harming the other customers.

After the shop was closed, she had to walk to her car. It was just at the other side of the slope where the shop was situated. Her friend was worried about her, but she told him she was fine and they parted. Still, she trembled a little while she walked and she was thinking ways of protecting herself in case of an assault. She got to her car, but she was still scanning the surroundings if there was anyone to harm her. She had seen a security car nearby with two security guards, so help was close, if something happened. Nothing did happen, and she thanked God for that.

What is so wrong with this world that makes people do desperate, illegal, outrageous, idiotic actions, just to get their head full of something they don't even need, since they are already wasted? What makes people think that it's acceptable to take something from another? Her friend had been talking with this man in the back, and was trying to make him understand that his actions had delayed their work, and that by stealing the cans he was taking money from someone else's purse, and even worst, maybe even from his or hers paycheck. He seemed to understand that and had tried to pay him what he had taken from the cabinet. But that didn't make the deed go undone. There are laws and procedures to follow. Consequences to face. Why can't people follow a simple rational thinking?

This experience made me also think, that if I would be going to bars and drinking with my friends, what if one night there would be a thief waiting for me in the ally? Or a kidnapper or a rapist or a murderer? What could I do with my head full of intoxicating substances? I couldn't think rationally. I could just watch and see how the mugger(s) would do and take what ever they wanted. I could try to fight back, but what could I do without my rational sense, sense of direction, or strength to fight them back? When my friends were still living in Turku they lured me to go out after dark with them and made me believe that it's alright to do it, that there is nothing in the shadows lurking and waiting. They still haven't been able to turn my head around. I don't think that nighttime moonlight admiring in a city is secure. You can never be sure what comes around the next corner. Besides, we didn't think that he was just drunk, but that he had some more stronger substances in his veins.

Pfeifer Broz boygoting the net?

Couple of sleepless nights, and what do I get?
Can't find what I want, so have to settle for crumbs...